Friday, May 30, 2008

lamaze and i think i dropped my baby...

Last night we had our first lamaze class! Aaron was still sick but feeling well enough to come along and I'm so glad he was there. I didn't count how many couples were there -- maybe about 10? We have the earliest due date of the bunch, though there was one other couple due less than a week after us. Our instructor is a little flaky but alright, and I think the class will be fun even if it is a little awkward. Haven't done many breathing exercises yet, basically she just gave an intro into signs for labor and all that jazz. And guess what?? I am not huge after all!! I think my belly compared nicely with the other pregnant ladies and I should be more "advanced" than the rest of the bunch anyway. Hopefully I can hang on to this confidence! We will meet weekly for four more sessions. Should get the hospital tour during my 37th week so I should get to see the birthing suites before I actually am using one -- I hope!

Other big news -- I *THINK* that the little boy has dropped! For those of you reading this who don't know about pregnancy, that is one of the preparations for birth where the baby moves down lower into your pelvis, getting ready for the big day. I can take deep breaths now and I've been having these ligament pains and twinges deep in my pelvis. I can't tell for sure if my shape has changed (usually you can see it) so I'm not entirely convinced that he's dropped, but I think it seems likely. Today I do have more pressure in my pelvis, but seems that stuff sometimes changes day to day anyway. Still, I think it's a definite possibility and I am pretty excited. That means he is gonna be ready to arrive soon! I read that usually the baby arrives within four weeks of dropping (aka lightening) but it can definitely be more or less. Maybe the little guy will be a June baby after all. We'll just have to see! Next doctor appt. is June 3rd, she'll check my cervix then to see how things are progressing. Then we start meeting every week. I guess this is going to happen after all! So exciting! I need more exclamation points!

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

35 weeks

So I feel like I'm into a real countdown now. I'm feeling huge, and so is he, with clearly restricted movements and more forceful kicks. Aaron and I seem to be able to make fairly educated guesses as to which parts are poking out here and there and it just makes us so excited to meet the little guy. I can't believe that it would be healthy and ok to meet him in as little as two weeks! Though I am feeling confident I've got to wait at least five more. And actually, that's probably good because Purdue's new family leave policy will only be available for parents who give birth after July 1st. Cuttin' it close!

Last night I had my breastfeeding class. It was really good! The instructor was great and she offered lots of resources for help if (or, more likely, when) we have trouble breastfeeding. I've been a little concerned about breastfeeding -- worried about whether I'll be able to provide, how I'll deal with going back to work, etc. etc. But I feel confident that I can make it all work even if it is a bit of a challenge. I have also decided for sure which type of pump I want to get since I still anticipate going back to work, so that's a relief too! Aaron was still sick so we decided he probably should just stay home and not cough all over the pregnant ladies. There were a few of us preggo ladies unaccompanied and I knew he was there with me in spirit. He's still sick but tomorrow we have our first lamaze class so hopefully he'll feel ok to come to that!

I think I'm starting to get my end of term food cravings. I hadn't really had any, but lately I'm realizing that all I want to eat are sugary breads and dairy products! Can't imagine what I'll see on the scale next week! But I can't help it, bagels and cream cheese, ice cream, bread and peanut butter, cereal, cookies -- I just can't get enough. I have to consciously make an effort to make veggies a regular event in the diet as well. I also have feelings of being constantly hungry, but then when I eat to satisfy the urges I quickly feel stuffed. I probably need to be drinking more fluids. Heartburn is also a regular occurrence these days.

One last baby observation: He gets the hiccups every other day at least. I feel bad for the guy. He's so big now it's not like a little flicker low in my pelvis, I can feel his whole body jolt. It must be so frustrating! But I guess it means he's learning to use his lungs so that's exciting! Just a couple more weeks little guy and I'm ready whenever you are!!

Saturday, May 24, 2008

last day out

So except for Aaron coming down with a cold, today has been a nice day. We went to breakfast in the morning and then walked around this little art fair that Lafayette was having, then checked out some yard sales. It is a beautiful day with sunny skies and a nice breeze. Yet I'm calling today my last day out because I have now reached the pregnant stage where everyone seems to feel obliged to comment on my growing belly and tell me how it looks like I'm going to give birth any day!! Ok fine, but it isn't any day now! I have at least three weeks to go!

Today's comments (Equally harmless but they sure can add up to making you feel pretty self conscious!):

1) Long wait at the restaurant for breakfast, so the waitress made a joke about how we probably thought I'd go into labor before the food arrived.

2) Man: "Have you got a boy or girl in there -- or both?"

3) Woman: "When are you due"
Me: "July 2...still got a while to go!"
Woman: "I was gonna say, looks like you're gonna give birth any day!"

Then two other women asked due dates and such and stayed away from commenting on my size as they each had daughters or sons expecting babies in the next month or two.

Sigh.

I keep trying to convince myself not to think about my size, but society is there to bring it back to the front of my mind. This morning before we left the house I was even telling Aaron how I didn't know why I worried so much about my body during this pregnancy, after all, from what I can tell I'm completely normal! Yet when strangers feel comfortable commenting on my body, size specifically, I can't help but just feel weird.

So we went to Walgreens and got cold medicine and ice cream. Screw it. If I'm gonna be a blimp, I might as well enjoy it. And I've vowed to stay home for the rest of my pregnancy, ha ha.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

baby classes

So last night was our first baby class! In Lafayette Indiana, you can sign up for Lamaze or Preparation for Childbirth. When you do this, you get to take a handful of other baby classes for free. We signed up for Lamaze. We've heard a lot of mixed reviews about the value of Lamaze, but whatever, we're gonna give it a shot. Anyway, last night's freebie class was "Newborn Care". I was really excited to see what it would be like.

It was funny arriving at the place. We got there just before class started, and a few more cars were pulling in as we did. So there we are, marching into the building -- three couples, each female equally rotund. I could barely control my giggles. Something was so funny about throwing all these pregnant folks together.

The class was fine. I was a little disappointed to find out that everything the instructor talked about I had read 100 times, but Aaron seemed to get something out of it, so that was good. And we did get to play with a baby doll, practicing swaddling, and changing diapers. Aaron and I were the only couple in the room intending to use cloth diapers. I was also disappointed that we didn't get the hospital tour! For some reason I thought that was part of this class. Next Tuesday I have a breastfeeding class and the following Thursday we begin Lamaze.

Picture, 34 weeks:

Monday, May 19, 2008

doc update - 34 weeks

I got a lot of sleep yesterday and this morning since I had been so exhausted from the weekend. When I woke up, I had breakfast, and showered, and after I'd been dressed a while, I started to feel really light headed and faint. I nearly fainted twice!! And therefore decided to take the day off. I basically assigned myself a day of bed rest, as I felt less dizzy when horizontal. I fortunately had my doc's appointment this afternoon anyway, so I was able to ask her about it then. By then I was feeling better, my blood pressure and other stats were normal, and so it is pretty inconclusive and doesn't seem too serious. Hmm.

On to the baby stats!
Things are good with the little one. I gained a bunch of weight over the past two weeks -- four pounds! That can't be good, though the doc didn't mention anything about it. But it's true that if I ignore my last weigh in, I really have only gained three pounds in the past month which is actually very good, so I will try not to stress on it too much. My uterus is measuring 32 cm (short? i dunno doc didn't seem concerned) and baby is HEAD DOWN! His heart beat is 140 too, so all is very good. For the past week or so Aaron and I have been speculating on his position, guessing which kick jab and lump is this or that. Mostly I think we get to see his little rump pushing out here or there.

We are getting anxious for the big day. We have our next doctor's appointment in two weeks, and then we start seeing her weekly. Nearly 34 weeks means we are to term in just three weeks, due in six, and should have a baby in eight weeks or less!

Sunday, May 18, 2008

spring in lafayette

It has been kind of a tiring weekend. Our friends and their prof. put on a sound art festival this weekend, so we thought we should participate as much as possible. Friday night we checked out some of the festival and then Drum Kit played as something of an opening party. I didn't see the show because it was at a bar that would likely be filled with cigarette smoke, but I'm told the show went well. Saturday we met up with Juan & Sara for breakfast at the Sunrise and then checked out some yard sales, finding a random treasure or two. We also went to Columbian Park, which is a big park in Lafayette that features something of a zoo and a water park. It was really nice! The zoo is a little weird and some of it made me sad. They have monkeys and lynx that seem fairly comfy, but they had a river otter without running water to play in so that seemed sad to me. Much of the zoo is a petting zoo and there were tons of baby goats that were really cute. After that we went to some more of the festival. Today we did even more audio festival and also finished cleaning out my studio. So I'm really tired and glad to be home!

Here are some pictures from Friday. I had to take a picture of the house next door for Meg (since she's moving there in July/August!) and so I took some pictures of the dogs having fun in the grass. Clyde is super camera-shy so it's hard to get good pictures of him, but one of them is pretty good. I'm too tired to resize the images so they are big. Enjoy.

Tomorrow we go to the doctor again, so I'll update you with my numbers then. I am sure getting BIG though and I'm feeling tired of being pregnant. I get the occasional back and hip pain, I feel tired, I have to pee all the time...I am now really in the pregnant stage of being pregnant! It's not so bad I guess, but when I think of two more months of this, I feel a little anxious for it to be over! On the plus side, I am starting to sort of look forward to the birth. Previously I had only been scared, but I'm sort of excited, even though I know it will be a very challenging experience.


Mabel rolling in the grass.



Mabel.



Clyde not trying to hide from the camera!



The evil Poison Ivy that lurks throughout our yard!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

back from cleveland

We're back from our weekend in Cleveland! It was a nice visit to see Aaron's grandma for Mother's Day. It's a six-hour drive there, so that kind of wore me out, but it really wasn't bad and we only had to make a couple of stops each way, so it seems we made pretty good time.

Aaron's grandma is now 90(!) but doing really great! Always an independent lady, she lives alone, takes walks everyday, and still drives. However, lately she's been a little lonelier and I was wondering if this visit would show a different side to the strong woman. Nope! She's still doing great!! She gets a little tired faster, but heck, so do I these days! She kept us super well-fed as usual and we even had a chance to walk in the park and see Lake Eerie. After being in Indiana for a while, the Great Lakes sure are impressive.

Baby has been super active these days, rolling around all the time, and I even feel and watch him move when I'm standing (used to really only be when I sat). But I guess he's getting to be a big boy, so that's to be expected! I have had a couple of belly-rubbers in the past few days, but it doesn't freak me out as much as I thought it would.

I'm still feeling pretty good, though, all in all. I wasn't able to get as much sleep this weekend as I have been lately (lately I've been needing about 9 hours a sleep a night!!) so that left me a little tired and cranky, and my back and hips hurt from sitting in the car so long. Other than that, though, the pregnancy still seems to be as smooth as ever. I have to take double-takes when I see myself in a mirror, as I continue to grow rapidly. Aaron's grandma said I look great, so that was nice, but then she followed up with the fact that when she saw me last month at the wedding in Michigan she thought I looked "advanced"! I of course let that put me into a funk for the next hour or so but I'm over it now. We all carry our babies and baby weight in different ways; my measurements and weight gain are right on track, so I should focus on that and not on outside assessments of how pregnant I look. But that sure is a hard thing to do!

So it seems we have as little as one month to go until the big day!! But more likely it will be closer to two. I'm trying to prep a happy mental space for the upcoming birth; seems to me your mind has a lot to do with your birth experience. We are pretty prepared as far as having all the necessary baby stuff (and then some!) but there are a few odds and ends we still need to gather. My office is throwing a shower for me in early June, so that may fill the gaps anyway. And on the 20th of this month we start our birth classes. Lafayette doesn't offer many options -- I think we're pretty much limited to the hospital's classes, but that's ok. We do newborn care on the 20th, breastfeeding on the 27th, and we start lamaze (only option) on the 29th. That goes through the month of June. I guess I might just go into labor before we finish the lamaze courses!! But I guess that probably won't be the case. Regardless, I guess the end is in sight -- or it seems like it should be, but it's one of those things I won't be able to picture until it happens I guess!

Thursday, May 8, 2008

belly pic, 8 months

Here's a belly picture from today -- 32 weeks 1 day pregnant.

We just keep growing! 2 more months to go!

Monday, May 5, 2008

doc update - 32 weeks

Again, I am jumping the gun because I am not 32 weeks until Wednesday, but I had my next doctor's appointment today so I wanted to give the lowdown. Everything is still right on track. Numbers are right on the norm -- 31 cm for my belly (doc said that usually your measurements pretty much correspond with the week you're at -- pretty interesting!), 130 bpm for the little guy's heart rate (within the healthy range -- it's a pretty big range), my blood pressure was good, and I even lost a pound after all that walking with the parade and Chicago trip. Things are going well! The little guy has been bopping around a lot lately and he even did a few gymnastics during the appointment.

I can't believe it would be perfectly ok to meet him face to face in as little as five weeks and two days. I'm anticipating he'll show up between the 2nd (due date) and 9th. Everything about this pregnancy has been right on the average so far, so I assume the birth date will be too. Actually, I sort of think he'll be an independence day baby so I better check to see if my doctor has any out-of-town 4th of July plans. Both Aaron & I really like our doc so I sure hope she's available on the big day! Maybe I can send the baby psychic messages to convince him to keep the labor during the working day. Sigh.

Other than that, not a lot of news. Work is ok, the job posting will be going through my department this week, and then it's on to some other department, so it will be a while until I know anything more there. I have an art show thing coming up this Friday and will probably be in the local paper for it too, heh heh. Then this weekend we're finally making the big drive to Cleveland to visit Aaron's grandma. It's been hard to find the time to do that, she's been lonely, and we won't be able to visit for a while after this, so it seems like the right thing to do. It's a long drive though, so I'm not looking forward to that. Plus I've had to pee nearly every two hours it seems, so that should add to the fun too, heh heh.

Tonight Juan and Sarah came over for a cookout at our place, and that was fun. We got one of those cheesy metal bowl fire pit things for the backyard and it is actually pretty nice! Our backyard is fun because it has lots of foliage and butterflies and birds and squirrels and rabbits and stuff, so it sometimes seems like a Disney movie. But then there's all the poison ivy...hmm...

Tomorrow is the Indiana primary. I voted early. I'm excited to hear the results!

OHH! And I didn't mention last blog, but Meg has decided to move to Lafayette! She will be living in the super-cute apartment next door. How cool!

Sunday, May 4, 2008

graduation party and baby shower

Just a quick post to say that my two parties this weekend went really well. Thursday Meg took the train down to visit. The train from MI requires a day-long layover in Chicago, and since I have tons of vacation time at work, I took Thursday off to go up and spend the day with her in Chicago. It was a lot of fun! We had a nice long lunch downtown and then wandered around and did a bit of shopping. Boy was my pregnant body tired after a day of walking!

We got back to Lafayette around 10 Thursday night and basically crashed. Then Friday we went to the store to get some baking goods to make treats for the parties. Friday night was the graduation party that my prof. was throwing for me, a fellow grad, and a new prof who just took a position in the new Electronic & Time-Based Media program. It was a good time! Drum kit played, there were wacky winds, and oh yeah, the theme was robots and aliens. I didn't dress up because, well, I'm a wimp and because I feel weird enough with the little alien inside me already, ha ha. To compensate Meg & I made green alien sugar cookies and a wacky robot/alien cake.

Saturday Meg, Aaron, and I went to breakfast with our friends Juan & Sara and then ran some other errands. Around 4 Sarah (sister) and her boyfriend Mike got to town and we went to Ingrid & Tain's for the baby shower. Meg & Ingrid had planned a crafty day with people making patches for a quilt that Ingrid is going to put together. How sweet! We were showered with lotsa love and awesome gifts, so thanks to all of you who were there (both physically and just in spirit)!!

Today Aaron and I have been doing some stuff around the yard. We're trying out planting some veggies in the backyard. We'll see how it goes! I may be bugging some of you for advice once I get into this a little more, ha ha. But we just decided to try a few different things in containers and in the earth and we'll see what (if any) take with my maybe not-so-green thumb.

Here are some pics of the wonderful weekend!