i know, right? what has this blog become. seriously.
anyway, i know you guys just want pics of the super cute growing boy, but i started this blog to rant and that's what i need it for.
SOOO. they have offered me the job that i interviewed for yesterday. good news, right? well it is, but the pay is lousy, it's a cubicle in a depressing building where they actually play white noise to drown out keyboard clicking and fill eerie silence. the work is monotonous, but at least it's work i pretty much like. the people were nice. but aaron hated his job at this place. but it is a different department. anyway, on the phone the woman who offered me the job said she would see if she can bump up the starting pay and that she would be open to flexing time (like working through lunch hours and stuff) so that's all great news.
so then i decided to ask the library AGAIN what's up with the job. so here it is... i worked for, let's say "Chuck, the librarian". his supervisor is "Sue, the librarian". recently they hired another librarian named "Ellen, the librarian" who reports to Sue. this new position, though it has digital in the name, is not reporting to Chuck, the guy in charge of digital stuff, but rather Ellen. i don't know Ellen well, but reportedly when they were developing this position from MY resume and job description, she seemed to think that wasn't a good idea and that the position should be somebody with a library degree. well, on and on they went creating the position -- again, based on my resume. but the position morphed a little in terms of requirements. they lost a few members of staff and basically took an existing position and morphed it with mine. the requirements say nothing about a library degree, but rather just an associates. anyway, Chuck, Sue, and Ellen all get to go through the applications and pick their top candidates. at which point they will conduct phone interviews and then i suppose follow up in person interviews. right now, they are still going through applications. feeling a bit as though we had all hinted around that this was MY position and that I would be taking it, i felt obliged to tell them of my job offer and inquired as to when they might have a decision regarding their position. basically, i was told that the decision would be up to Ellen, direct supervisor. and though Chuck and Sue would think of me as the ideal candidate, it isn't up to them. WTF?? so Sue proceeded to tell me that it's not up to her, but she would think it would be wise to take this job offered to me, in case the other one isn't offered to me. she wouldn't "want to give me any false hope".
false hope. is there hope that is something other than false?
so when the lady calls back about this new job i guess i'll just accept it. gotta pay the bills somehow.
it will be hard enough to leave sam at home and go to work. especially for a job that makes me feel worthless.
sometimes i feel so trapped. and i do it to myself. sigh.
2 comments:
Well, you are obviously a desirable candidate, Liz, having one employer offering you a position and the other considering you to be one of the ones who will be interviewed.
I, too, would probably take the one offered (keep negotiating on the salary and get it up there...if they come back with $2000 higher, you go higher than that (4-5K?) and then let them come down or give you their final offer. Good that they are trying to increase it.
You can always pursue something else while you have a job -- you're in a better position even though it's hard to look when you are working, taking care of Sam, etc.
The other job sounds...iffy. In that the person who is doing the hiring may very well want to control the process and it may include people she knows. Maybe not, but...
Try to approach the job cheerfully, but don't work any harder than you need to. What I mean is, you want to save good energy for your family. You'll be fine. I know it.
Congratulations!
Job hunting is brutal. I despise it. But you know, I agree with annej, take the one that is offered (with some negotiations on salary). You can use it as a "resume builder" at least and if the other one you want more comes through, there is nothing wrong with quitting. It happens all the time.
Also, I know there is a lot of back and forth on staying at home with your kid. It was difficult for me to go back. But E is still a great kid even though I worked and at the age that she's at now I notice that she's much more socially independent than a lot of the kids that have stayed home with their mothers full time for their first four years. Either way you make a sacrifice but if you can find a caretaker that really loves your child (we've been really fortunate on that front) then your child will thrive despite you not being there 24 hours a day.
Good luck on the job front!
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